One step forward, two steps back...

that's the feeling today. I'm always trying to stay positive about my relationship but there's always this nagging feeling that no matter what I do, its not enough to hold on. I'm beginning to think this wasn't meant to be. I think the roller coaster of emotions is too much for little me to handle. I think his constant flip flopping on where he wants to be is taking its toll on me. One day I'm estatic about us and the next I'm going thru the emotions of being single again. Yeah, that's how extreme the emotions are. See why I'm losing my sanity?

Progress...

It was an incredible weekend. The relationship is moving, don't know exactly the direction that its moving, but hey, lets not ask for too much. Any move is good, at least I'm not hanging out by myself in limbo.

Life can be so unpredictable and I am slowly learning that that's not always a bad thing.

uurrgghhh...candy coma...sugar high

Remind me not to take candy from small children. I only took a handful and now my head is paying the price. I knew I should have stopped at the 3rd bag of reese's pieces. Wish me well, I'm crawling into bed after work and hopefully this "pang" will go away. Ouchy. Next year, I will only take ONE, greed be-gone!

Another month, another post...

It was great trick 'o treating with the godsons last nite. Fun with a capital "F". It was a great little stroll and definitely cemented my wanting of little ones. I know not at this very moment, but soon, I would love to cuddle with my own little monster as they trolly thru the neighborhood begging for candy from strangers. Oh, yes, that is a dream.

I can only hope that the current relationship will bring me closer to that dream. Everyday I hope for some kind of sign that its "moving in the right direction". But is it just me that the harder you look, the less it seems to be that way. I know what I "need" to do, but what about all that following your heart thing? *Sigh* Even I'm getting sick and tired of my indecisiveness. One day, and I mean before this year ends, I will nip this in the bud should it not materialize what I need in life. Pray for me kiddies!!!