I'm 12...

The immaturity of how I deal with my relationships will amaze anyone. With two weeks before i turn 30, you would think I'd learned a lot these past 3 decades about how to handle relationships. NOPE. I suck at it. I'm immature and insecure. Why? God knows. How do you learn to be an adult? There's got to be classes somewhere at that can give me a few pointers. Or maybe I gotta seek more professional help from the head doctors. Until I "grow the f_ck up", I'm 12.