when your mind does tricks without the LSD

I swear I'm a freak. Most people jump to conclusions when they don't have all the facts and their minds wander around a bit. ME??? Hahahah...I imagine the hell of out EVERYTHING. That's right, everything. I can go from, hey, he's late for dinner, to he must be fking around behind my back because I have no idea how to hold down a relationship and men can not be trusted because they think with the lower part of their body and everything that comes to mind is negatively devastating. God, I so need drugs now because I have no control over my own thoughts. Thoughts that are physically and mentally crippling because I'm such a fking pessimist.

I have no faith in people, but then, that's a whole 'nother therapy session isn't it?
For now, I will sit in my padded room and rock myself to sleep.