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karma...believe in it!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

are we all the same?

these days i see many of my girlfriends go thru the same thing. i always say to myself, that will not be me. i will not turn into some idiot who would wait around for some guy to get a clue. i already did that 5 yrs ago, it doesn't work. but the sad thing is, if he does move, it's only because you kicked his ass so hard, he had to - defeats the point.
i'm at my wits end right now, putting my life on hold so he can figure out what he's gonna do with his. what is wrong with me? i swear i would never put myself in that situation again. it's not fair to me. yeah yeah, i bitch and bitch, but what am i gonna do about it? well, i'm gonna give it just a little time to pan itself out, and then i'm just gonna call it as i see it.
so tired, i have to say, trying to maintain a relationship that i have no idea where it's headed. i'm so not the kind of person who can wait on the sidelines. and on top of all that, i lack patience.
i don't have the luxury to give him yrs, i can only manage to give him enough time to digest our last discussion. if he still doesn't get it, well by golly, he's not gonna get it, no matter how much time i give.
watch out world, i'm gonna be back in the game!